Why didn’t I see it before,
you’re there evermore,
knocking at my door
pleading for me to break down my walls,
I keep up to keep you out.

Why didn’t I see it before?
You’re so very much alike,
I love him all the same,
but doesn’t take a scientist
to realize your name
is always on my mind.

How could I not see,
how much you remind me
of him and our problems,
and all the issues you bring up now,
that were just the same back then.

How could I not know,
why you keep trying to let me go.
And I keep on holding on to you,
and no matter what I do, I can’t forget.

How did I not see,
that you make me so happy,
why can’t I be happy just with you?

How did I not find,
that in the rubble left of heartbreak,
you remain, holding me
and keeping me the same, the way I was before.

I cannot see you,
because I’m blinded
by the angel that he is,
I’m falling deeper into this bottomless trench.

Letting him go,
is like telling my entire life
that I have been no more than strife,
drama to the world,
because maybe it helps me thrive.

How can I do this to you?
Tell you every day I love you,
knowing in every way I need you,
but knowing all the same I love him more.

How could it take just one song
to make me realize,
you’re not that different in my eyes,
in fact you’re just the same,
and I keep thinking of your name,
but I cannot cheat the love I have for him.

How could I not see,
that these things that seem so
in-my-place to me,
could be hurting you painfully,
and I don’t know how to make you feel better.

How can I break free?
Boy, I love him,
but I know that you love me,
you’d be with me, yes I see,
but I just can’t break my heart of this addiction.

Whatever we have, I can see it now,
it’s already over. It’s already ended,
the ending was sweet, but I cannot take it,
I just want him, not you.
I’m sorry, babe I love you.
I just don’t know how to break the spell,
that he’s cast on me as well,
so I can’t give myself all to you.

I’d like to give a special shout-out to slpmartin for always commenting with such nice things to say about my poetry! Thank you!

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